If You Really Knew Me

If you really knew me, you'd know that I know a lot about the NFL. And trust me, I mean A LOT! If you really knew me, you'd know that it does make me upset when the Patriots lose. You'd know that I miss playing sports and I really want to again. If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm in constant pain from injuries that I suffered when playing football, but never took care of and it's too late now.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I don't have that many friends, and I'm fine with that. Most of the time. I don't see the point in wasting your time trying to be friends with everyone when you won't talk to most of them again after you graduate from high school.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I deal with depression. I just put on a mask to make people think I'm happy. I just don't want people to treat me different because of it. You'd know that I really do want to open up and express myself, but I either feel like I have no one or I just don't know how to say it. If you really knew me, you'd know that I write raps when I'm upset. You'd know that I really can rap. And I wish I could pursue that, but I'm scared to get in front of people.